What is the sense of belonging in this situation?

I never thought I would put ESL into my real life situation but now I'm questioning myself.

Sense of belonging is the sense of being accepted into a group or society. This will help individuals to express themselves and not feeling lonely.

However, I don't fit into of that criteria when it comes to belonging.

Home, Subang or Penang, I just don't fit.

Maybe I'm thinking too much or this is only temporary.

If I'm thinking too much, why would I think to that extent?

If it is only temporary, why should I be worry about it?

Sadly on this trip, I was not able to meet with Alicia, Kim, WeiZhi because one is busy exams and another is on a vacation(Penang -.-, but she is coming back today) and I don't have bloody transport to meet up with him. Sorry.

I miss them so much.

Talking on the phone or Skype only gives temporary satisfaction that you are actually talking to them. But clearly face to face is a much better way to communicate because then you can see their facial expression, feel them and basically know that they're alive&well. When you're visually communicating, deep inside you still know that they're faraway and not beside you physically. Gah, it has been 6 months and I still miss high school.

I miss how we see each other everyday, find time to skip classes so we can gossip and basically just hang around.

WHY AM I STILL REMINISCING OVER THE PAST?

Get over the fact that everyone is growing up and going different ways. The four of us are tight, so I'm sure even if we are all in different parts of the world SOMEHOW we will find ways to catch up :)