How're things?

I made my blog private because Penang is really a small island and things spread fast. Never knew that college can be that extreme.
Just the other day the hostel guard told me a black Myvi with a bunch of girls was stalking me. Maybe she is wrong and thinking too much. But imagine a bunch of unknown people talking behind your back about how you're going out with so many guys and recently a new 'fish', CC.

UGH

Okay, I only invited people that I trusted my whole life so I won't hide anything anymore because its really painful that I can't express it other way besides than blogging.

Here it goes,
Right here in Penang, EVERYBODY is against me & CC seeing each other. I know I shouldn't care what other people say but what is those are your closest friends here?
Honestly, I doubted CC at first. I mean, who doesn't?
A guy like him that bring girls out, party, drives a Mazda6, serenades by the violin strings and freakin fair like a male version of Snow White. He is okaylah.
Perhaps I'm exaggerating in the sense of a typical jock but that's the point. HE IS. That is why my friends are against us seeing each other. They are worried that he might use and hurt me because its not the first time I'm going out with a guy like him. There was K during the beginning of the year and ever since him, my heart just broke and laid there.
That is also when I started going on dates with different guys but none of them seem to pick my heart up again.
Then comes CC. You might think oh here with the typical way jock flirts with girls. Sweet talking, buying drinks and lastly, sex. The first evening we went out together it wasn't even a date.
I fall for him for all the wrong reasons.

I like how he set his own curfew eventhough his parents don't really mind.
I like how he complains that girls with manicure are abit too much.
I like how bloody childish he can get at times.
I like how he is a mommy's boy.
I like how he opens up to me about everything which brings to reminiscing ALOT about his ex and... he hasn't move on. That is the another major issue besides than all of his and my friends are against both of us.

Gawd I sound like a 15 year old teenage girl that goes on and on about how amazing a guy is and never notice his flaws. Okay, I'll continue this soon because I gotta go now. Lol.

The thing is, I never opened my heart after K and then he came along. I'm just afraid he might be taking me as a rebound. He is not ready to let go of the memories he had with his ex. Have I consider that thought before I continue to fall for him?
Of course I do. Infact, I asked him to try and try to go back to his ex. Or wait for her.
Either way, perhaps we're better off as friends. Things have been different. The distance between us is wider as time passes.
I suppose he feels the same as well.

Another fling. Another guy. Another heartbreak.