I'll Go So High

I can never reiterate how this space right here is the only space where my mind flows without restrictions, boundaries, pressure or animosity. It is this space that my deepest thoughts and feelings are confined without fear of judgement or humiliation. It is funny how after so many years, I still come back here when I'm lost in my thoughts. There are no answers written, nobody to help me, but just this space, a blank empty page for me to write.

I feel lost now. My feelings scattered and my hope divided. 

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To my future self,

Don't hold back on your feelings. 

This is difficult but you know what I'm talking about.

If you do, when you explode, when there is no one around you to tell you its okay, remind yourself by looking through your scars. Scars are not only reminders of the conflict but also a reminder of how strong you have become since then. 

Don't give up.

If you fail when given your best then be proud. 

If you fail without giving your best, you deserve it.

If you feel demotivated or lazy, straighten out your priorities. When you have, PUSH. Push through the distractions, push through all restraints and gain the momentum. The feeling of liberation at the end is unattainable by any monetary terms only efforts. 

Don't procrastinate, please.

No explanation needed, I'm pretty sure you are clear of its consequences. So, don't. Just dont!

Okay bye.