Padam Padam

It has been a while since I last wrote a personal entry. Since university life has started, I barely had time to reflect upon myself. There are some drafts but usually those drafts are unfinished words that eventually, get lost in time. You know, I think I have this habit of leaving work half way done and not completing it.
For instance by just writing this post, I'm uncertain whether I'll publish it because I'm having trouble to jot down my thoughts into words. Hence the drafts.

I'll try though.
I'll try to write a simple entry every single day to break this habit of mine. Not only that, I want to reflect on myself in this blog, these entries, in the future. Sometimes its good to read&reflect your past memories, may it be happy or sad. For me, it reminds me of how blessed I was to have those happy moments and emotional breakdowns. Contradicting, but all these experiences shapes who I am today. I may not be perfect, nor smart, pretty, or wealthy but I feel content to have amazing people around me and my possessions (although there will be times where I spend uncontrollably during sales) . And that I believe, is the most important.


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It is approximately 16 hours away from the commencement of my finals. I think aside from the habit of unfinished work, I have a major issue with time management & procrastination. At the beginning of the semester, my tutor advised me to properly set up a suitable schedule that fits me. Believe me, I tried, just not hard enough. 
I didn't follow my schedule religiously like how I should and the most foolish reason of all- forgetting that I even have a schedule to follow. Moreover, my tendency to procrastinate delays my schedule which ultimately, leads me to not doing what I'm suppose to do.

"I shall do it tomorrow."
"I will double up my hours of independent study next week."
"I pinky promise to revise the lecture notes after ten minutes of Facebook."

When the moment comes,

"I shall to do it next week. Must do it!"
"I will triple up my hours of independent study and additional research!"
"I solemnly promise to revise ALL notes after my one hour of nap."

With all that said, my time management up till today, has never been fixed. 
Consequently, week 10 has arrived which is the final week of the semester and hence the finals. With the dateline of assignments approaching and the need to revise for finals, I have trouble to rush against time. I am expecting sleepless nights, plenty of caffeine and brain malfunction during exams. Touch wood!
I realized reading or completing tutorial questions in this short period of time is possible but inefficient. I was taught a skill to "study smart" by writing keywords in cue cards which I hope to be a more efficient method. It was created by the beau which he calls himself "Simply genius." Which brings to a completely unrelated note, I think I should file for a missing report because he has not reply my text! 
(Its really an unfortunate for him to get such a clingy companion)