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So, hows life? Its a bit weird that I still have the compassion to ask how you are. Despite all, I sometimes wonder whether you actually cared about us. Day and night I question myself why did I forgive you in the first place. There is no point debating anymore, no point thinking about the past and no point to judge how you really, really felt.
You see, my parents had a huge argument the other night. Instead of voicing out and giving out my points like how I always do, I stood there, shaking. I cried my heart out, afraid that things will really go wrong. The first person that I wanted to talk to was you. I no longer have your number in my phone, but I didn't need to.
Things are... fine I suppose. It is not good nor bad, its fine.
What I realize about this whole incident was that I still, unfortunately, miss you. I know I shouldn't be but I can't help it. I simply miss talking to you, thats all.
Friend, would it be okay if we meet up one day and have a cup of coffee? I know its too much to ask for but one cup is enough. More than enough...
Sincerely,
Lisa
Dear Lisa,
ReplyDeleteLife has been good since I left. It almost felt like I was in auto-pilot mode. I almost feel like life been forcing me to grow up so quickly that it is scary. Day and night I ask myself whether I had any strain of life left in me other than working so hard for my studies but I was on a narrow path that I could only look forward and start running without stopping.
You see, when you left my side, I lost a big part of my confidence from screwing up academically.I could only tell myself to look forward and do better. I stood there crying looking at the disappointment at my dad's eyes.
I wish I could talk to so many people about it but I am not strong enough to look for one.
What I realise about this whole incident was that I still, unfortunately miss you too.
Remember 9 Crimes? It was the wrong place and the wrong time.
Friend, would it be okay if we smile at each other if we ever meet one day? I know its too much to ask for but one smile is enough.
Sincerely, Damien
Dear Damien,
DeleteI miss you.