Past two days was tough.
Self inflicted or not it left a huge scar.
As I wandered in the same store flipping through countless of magazines, in my head I was torn in between reality and fantasy.
I stood the same spot for half an hour before I realize that I have to find a way back.
At the same time, I didn't want to. I just wanted to stay there as long as I could.
So I sat by the staircase. Thinking and waiting.
Every minute passed like seconds. My mind went blank for a whole five minutes.
I hesitated to hit the send button or not.
Gah, I'm going to hell anyway I said to myself.
After hitting send, my heart stopped. I didn't know what will be the reply. A few seconds later, I was notified that the number didn't even exist anymore.
It was harder than getting a slap in the face.
But that was whole other story. I knew I need to hit the reality button and figure out a way.
Called an old buddy and just poured everything out.
Thank you :)
Self inflicted or not it left a huge scar.
As I wandered in the same store flipping through countless of magazines, in my head I was torn in between reality and fantasy.
I stood the same spot for half an hour before I realize that I have to find a way back.
At the same time, I didn't want to. I just wanted to stay there as long as I could.
So I sat by the staircase. Thinking and waiting.
Every minute passed like seconds. My mind went blank for a whole five minutes.
I hesitated to hit the send button or not.
Gah, I'm going to hell anyway I said to myself.
After hitting send, my heart stopped. I didn't know what will be the reply. A few seconds later, I was notified that the number didn't even exist anymore.
It was harder than getting a slap in the face.
But that was whole other story. I knew I need to hit the reality button and figure out a way.
Called an old buddy and just poured everything out.
Thank you :)
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PANGKOR TRIP IS JUST 5 DAYS AWAY
Honestly, I don't feel any excitement at all. Maybe it's because theres jsut too many things running through my head now.
I don't even have cash in hand to buy things I need!
Dad looks pretty upset nowadays probably because he or Mom (didn't dare to ask) apparently caused a scratch on the Mazda Rx8. I don't even wanna ask how is it. They might just burst since it is Dad's precious. Like they say,
Never upset the man of the house.
Not only I need money but I'm in debt as well!
crap.
Honestly, I don't feel any excitement at all. Maybe it's because theres jsut too many things running through my head now.
I don't even have cash in hand to buy things I need!
Dad looks pretty upset nowadays probably because he or Mom (didn't dare to ask) apparently caused a scratch on the Mazda Rx8. I don't even wanna ask how is it. They might just burst since it is Dad's precious. Like they say,
Never upset the man of the house.
Not only I need money but I'm in debt as well!
crap.
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