I really had a major wake up call last night at Chem's. We had an exam and I felt like a complete idiot while doing since I did NOT study a single shit.
Therefore I faced the consequence of having the lowest mark in class. I was mortified, humiliated & obviously afraid of how 'rents will think (apparently teac will call yr 'rents if you get the lowest)
Therefore I faced the consequence of having the lowest mark in class. I was mortified, humiliated & obviously afraid of how 'rents will think (apparently teac will call yr 'rents if you get the lowest)
I don't shine in my studies. Despite the fact that I obtained straight A's for UPSR and only a B for PMR, I don't think that I am an education sorta person. I gotta admit I stay on track at school just because of 'rents or not I might be backpacking around the Eygpt right now.
Really.
I still remember how my girlfriends used to think I'm crazy & wonder what I'll do for living.
Honestly, I don't care
Dad always tell that one of the greatest sins in a humans life is acting like a sloth. And I agree 100% with him hands down (eventhough I commit that sin at times) But I don't think not completing your studies is a part of 'sloth-ing' right? I mean, of course education is important but I can't seem to understand the whole part of it. Believe me, I tried to change my point of view but I can't. I just can't see how education really plays a LIFETIME role. When I meant education, I meant learning in school the subjects that you despice & DON'T have choice. If you disagree, I completly understand.
Theres nothing to feel guilty about it, wtf syn :/
"Then why are you still in school?" you might ask. I had a decision to quit school. And I still do. But after having a flashback of the past 11 years I had in my life, if I quit now I'll be wasting my whole 11 years of my life. So why not just bear with it for the next 7 months
11 years and I won't say it's a complete waste despite of me having the thought that education is not everything. I've had tons of experience in every aspect. Love, friendship, breakdowns, running away, etc. So now it's my turning point of life. After countless of sleepless nights tossing and turning, staring at the sky for hours, walking around the neighborhood pitch black, eating junks and don't even notice what I was eating I realized what I really want.
Have you?
p.s/ Gosh, I'm surprised if you're actually reading this
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